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The Formative Interval
Staring at the array of unmarked pages, nothing appeared to bring forth
anything my hands could coalesce. Their vast colorless expanse formed an
unintentional invisible line that kept my fingers from marking its surface.
I stood with residual determination, unwilling to concede to its defensive
structure. Taking additional tentative swipes to the page, the pen felt
heavier with each stroke. I felt my hands begin trembling as my resolve
evaporated, replaced with an uneasy determination; there was little I could
do that would allay the diminishing inspiration. Looking towards her for any
direction or elaboration offered little that would help me move on. Her
distinctive lack of involvement was subtle.
She held her head back; looking past me while deliberately averting her eyes
from my direction. There wasn't much she could do to help arouse the
hibernating surface ahead of me. Examining the boat's elaborate pool of
instruments and elaborate entanglements of metal and wire provided little
inspiration, its declarations were silent, offering mute response to my
inquiries. My gaze returned to the forsaken page, now crowded into an
incomprehensible mishmash of squabbles, stay lines and random dots that ran
into itself without meaningful realization.
It became an increasingly hopeless task, there was no way I'd be able to
manage to manifest anything remotely like I'd attempt, let alone something
that would meet their expectations. Looking further past the boat, I noticed
we were floating aimlessly down the river, any specific destination appeared
lost beneath waves of non-committal forces. They seemed to overwhelm our
position, knocking us off any defined course until the subsequent path was
no longer visible. Floating down the river without purpose, we found
ourselves stranded without clear direction.
Standing in place, I suddenly felt lost, deliberately left unaided I
declared the mass of lines and figures on the page a lost cause in my mind.
I took the top page off the canvas and bunched it up into a small ball, then
thaw it off the side of the ship, watching it sink beneath the waves without
fanfare. I looked around and watched as the anticipation in her face
succumbed to disappointment. My heart sank beneath my feet; I knew I'd come
up empty. My mind felt completely spent despite having barely begun before
giving in to malaise. I resolved not to surrender so quickly, and replaced
the page with another; this time
Deicing with determination not to jump around so much and focus on the
immediate surroundings wasn't simple, and required a degree of concentration
I didn't anticipate. I pondered my next move and decided not be so hasty. I
resisted the urge to start filling in something right away; I wasn't going
to limit my options again. I waited patiently for an interesting idea to
come to me and the blank page began to resemble something, but I couldn't
quite figure what it might be. I was able to block the temptation to jump
right in by looking towards the skies above. The first moon was beginning
its strong ascent, while the circumference of the second was just becoming
visible as it peered over the distant horizon. I stepped away from the easel
and moved towards the opposing side to gain a better view of the
complimentary lunar forces. I wasn't confident what would transpire from
that point, but felt instinctive relief. I'd found a welcome respite from
the unnatural pressure deriving from filling a blank, motionless page
without guidance or assistance.
Attempting further entrenchments wouldn't have made much difference, the
cluttered page had become oversaturated. It would better to start fresh.
Explaining this to her wouldn't necessarily be worth the trouble, so I
decided not to pry deeper. Instead, I decided to soak in the rolling waves,
inhaling their oddly reassuring atmosphere without further elaboration.
Leaning over the boat's railing would hopefully provide enough reaffirmation
that I hadn't wasted effort on the truncated render.
I carefully watched the currents flowing beneath the boat, maintaining a
consistent pace both relaxing and energizing. The steady, unbroken lines of
water swirled around endlessly, while the air above flowed at a languid
pace, allowing us to move forwards without facing excessive pressure. I
looked in her direction, and she wasn't particularly engrossed in anything
in particular, instead deciding to make an advantageous repose from the
lull. He maintained his steady position in front of the steering wheel, not
budging noticeably, taking his time without becoming complacent.
Looking back over the seamless water flowing behind the boat, it rolled
endlessly with a strange consistency. The currents appeared to flow calmly,
effortlessly reflecting the calm moons above serenely. Twisting clouds
floated far above us, gently motioning alongside our journey without leaving
permanent marks in the skies. Watching their transient journey beneath the
intertwined spheres quickly engaged my attention. I found myself
unexpectedly transfixed, concentrating on their random patterns, looking for
any resulting signals that might point me in a productive direction. The
pressure I felt from my work remained pulsating beneath the surface, but it
wasn't nearly as prominent, slowly fading into the background. Concentrating
focus on the lunar surfaces, I noticed a difference in their appearance. The
first moon that rose displayed an uneven surface, marked by streaks of rocks
and long valleys, interwoven with masses of rocky peaks and sharp cuts into
its atmosphere.
Its recalcitrant movement appeared defiantly unpredictable to a noticeable
degree; it was deliberately avoiding following a consistent orbit, but
managing to stay on a general path. Conversely, the secondary lunar object
provided contrast. Smaller than the first, its smooth surface unblemished by
any impacts or disfigurements, it maintained a similar green hue but didn't
appear nearly as aggressive, following its predictable path faithfully
without causing undue distraction. Alternating focus between the moons
provided a welcome distraction, observing their silent maneuvers, they slid
past one another as they began reaching a point of ascent, until they'd
managed the achieve approximately the same height in the sky. Both seemed to
pause, securing their place before releasing their accumulated worries when
they arrived at their secure locations.
Their calm exterior light was surprisingly docile. I felt eyes drifting down
into their sockets, before they closed, the moons provide a half-awake
accompaniment that felt safe and secure. My mind drifted further from the
empty pages, depressuring their demands without putting up much effort. In
my subconscious, I knew she'd be there looking vigilantly, guarding our
position while giving me a brief moment to internalize the alien atmosphere
without undue expectation. Allowing some room for the nocturnal blanket, I
didn't fully fall under its spell, maintaining a firm grip on the boat's
surface, never letting it slip far from my grasp. Standing on the boat's
edge, I maintained a determined effort to ensure I wasn't going to end up
trapped beneath its deceptively comforting glaze.
Using my breath to time the maneuvers carefully, I spaced them consistently
in order to make sure I didn't get too far off track. However, my eyes were
closed making any approximate measurements inaccurate. Before realizing what
was happening, I found myself awakened by a steady noise at a loud frequency
and volume. The undefined sound was inconsistent, moving in and out at
unpredictable intervals before switching direction. Hearing the echoes
reverberate throughout the boat. I couldn't place their origin when I opened
my eyes and looked around the vessel. I struggled to locate their source
without success; it wasn't immediately clear where the incomprehensible
bursts of sound emanated.
Apparently, he also heard the sounds and finding them important enough,
quickly left his position to investigate their origin. I watched him walk
across its surface carefully, looking through every small portion for the
signal's emergence. He didn't appear to locate anything upon first
inspection, the darkness seemed to shroud its determinative place. Listening
carefully for clues, the sound seemed to submerge without prompting, seeming
to sink beneath the waves quickly before it could be located. She stood
silently across the way, not responding to its reverberations, displaying a
resolute focus on the more immediate task of forging a practical navigation
path through the river's sudden turns and shifting bends. Maintaining focus
despite its distractions didn't dissuade her in the slightest. It only
seemed to reinforce her resolve; she was increasingly determined not to
falter from taking her clandestine route.
My attention was drawn back to his search, I waited as he stumbled around
over the decks beneath the moons' glow. It had diminished to until the
surroundings had come to a complete silence, the sails above blocking any
further revelations. He went around in small circles, repeatedly searching
the same areas in vain to little resolution. After several minutes, he
appeared to give up on the search, returning to the vessel's controls with a
visible sense of dejection. Having been defeated by the muted defense, he
resumed command of its direction, handing the mysterious sounds back to the
currents below. I restored my position and stood alongside the back,
watching my group of carefully positioned switches percolate across the
surface. They hadn't budged despite the transient noise and its distraction.
I inferred that they needed continual monitoring, resolving not to lose
focus. Neither one of the figures were overly concerned by the inordinate
sounds. It seemed like their sudden burst represented a random occurrence.
I watched the surface carefully, while keeping track of them had become
tedious, it allowed me to divert energy from the draining task of searching
for inspiration and direction. The easel stood towards the back of the
boards, remaining glaringly unfulfilled while I set my attention elsewhere.
The waves surreptiously swelled at the side of the boat, I listened
carefully as they swept the sides awaiting something that might not be
audible if I wasn't paying attention. After several minutes, the lilting
forces became prevalent, and they quickly washed away any lingering noises.
I turned and they were both preoccupied with their tasks.
The resilient boat moved down the uneven river-banks effortlessly, seeming
to take an automatic path without need for much assistance, but I maintained
a careful watch regardless, unwilling to concede to its command. She watched
silently and kept a strategic point firmly in hand, the onrushing wind and
water responding to her assertion with steady obedience. A sense of calm
eased the residual pressures, with only the waves accompanying our
deliberate movements. Without warning, another loud bang peered the night
skies and this was immediately followed by a series of loud grinding noises
that resulted in an immediate sense of danger. She stood up immediately, and
he quickly sprung into defensive mode. He nearly jumped over the bridge,
landing back on the center panels, commencing an instantaneous search for
the renewed disruption's origin.
The bangs only got louder, increasing in length and volume as they scratched
deeper across the surface, any damage they caused unseen. He jutted quickly
over the boards, quickly moving across the surface attempting to locate the
point of conflict. Searching both sides quickly he remained unable to find
the source of the trouble. The loud bangs intensified and the subsequent
clashing noises destabilized the night, giving a clear signal of distress.
She responded to their resumption quietly, surveying the situation quickly
before deciding maintain her position in relative security.
Another series of bangs and crashes followed with even greater strength and
velocity, surrounding the boat's vicinity, completely overwhelming the
previous calm. I felt the surface buckle and shake from the pressure, the
vessel's boards and planks appeared to sway and nearly sinking beneath the
waves. An unknown force was assaulting us; surrounding us with intensifying
danger. As the crashes, screeches and reverberation grew ever louder and
more threatening, it was clear they needed to be countered without delay.
He reinforced his position on the deck, imploring something to happen by
stomping his feet. Working quickly beneath the shrouded sails roiled by the
sudden surge of discomforting noises, the ship veering slightly off-balance,
appearing to tilt against the pronounced force. His efforts were momentarily
disrupted by additional series of loud bangs that shook the surface. They
were loud enough that they threw off my balance but quickly dissipated. It
wasn't clear what was happening but he seemed to have come to a
determination about what was causing the loud bangs. After more shudders
coursed through the ship, we both decided to take refuge near the front of
the boat to position ourselves at the edge of the resulting waves. He walked
the middle and back of the vessel, moving around in rapid lines, surveying
the vessel until he seemed to knock into something. It wasn't immediately
clear what it might be.
Moving closer, I managed to see a long metallic pipe that appeared solidly
welded to ground, allowing it to rise directly upward without impediment. It
formed an unobtrusive yet distinctive marker rising from the mostly wood
surroundings. Planted nonobstrusively, and easy to overlook, forming a
relatively nondescript appearance from that distant angle. Standing straight
up towards the back. He moved in front of it, blocking our view, it wasn't
immediately clear what process he'd use to defuse its ongoing bursts of
noise. Moving several feet closer gave me more details and a clearer angle
to observe his actions.
She followed quickly at this point and I noticed her standing alongside me.
We gained additional insight from that angle. The object appeared to form a
large, metal mast jutting straight upwards from the boat's boards, appearing
to act as support for stabilizing the vessel. After an intense foray
examining the vessels surface, he finally discovered the problem's source.
Several additional loud bangs followed, with the same intensity as the
others. The sails retreated, bowing before the pressure, before beginning to
wave furiously in the opposite direction.
They appeared to silently implore him to put a delay to the proceedings,
their clandestine voices grew louder with each word. Looking back in his
direction, he'd already managed to pinpoint the precise location of the
problem and had already begun the process of resolving the ongoing
impediment. His arms extended into the piling, quickly pushing a series of
small buttons in rapid patterns until there was a loud click. A small door
opened at its center and a flat tray slid out of is container. I recognized
the shape and form of an antique record player, hidden within the long pipe.
There appeared to be something stuck on the surface, colliding with another
object. When they struck each other, they made a loud scratching noise that
was amplified by numerous hidden loudspeakers placed unobtrusively far above
the sails where they wouldn't be seen.
His eyes concentrated on the object in front of him and it quickly became
clear that it was an odd, antique record player. It had remained silent and
hidden but somehow it had accidentally been turned on without being tuned,
resulting in the loud crashing, noises it made. It stuck out of the metal
pipe at an odd angle, and its position made it tilt slightly. Quickly
reconciling its position, his hands balanced its the ancient record player
came to a halt, quieting immediately. He knelt over its surface and appeared
to find something amiss. He motioned towards its left side and a closer
inspection revealed its needle had been knocked off its position and was
scratching against its bare surface. She appeared relieved by this unlikely
situation, it sounded like something much worse was occurring. Walking back
over the boards with renewed confidence, it seemed the gathering pressure
lifted from her almost instantly.
The impatient fingers moved quickly as he continued fine tuning the record
player. It was surprising that it still managed to work at all considering
its age and accumulated wear. He worked carefully until arriving at what
sounded like a decent position. He turned his attention to a small lever
beneath it and a secondary lower tray slid out haphazardly. It bumped
against the edges at certain points, and needed some nudging, but eventually
opened. I was surprised to see it wasn't empty but filled thee-quarters with
records neatly piled on top of each other.
Despite being somewhat dusty and noticeably worn, it was complimented by a
neatly-stacked collection of old albums. He picked one out at random, placed
it on the surface and slid his fingers on the front side. Placing its needle
on the surface, there was a noticeable pause, a slither of feedback before
an unknown piece began unfolding. It sounded oddly out of place given our
situation, it sounded restrained and sedated, somewhat over-dramatic and
elaborately orchestrated. He stood back a few steps and allowed it to play
out for several minutes. She walked towards the middle of the boat before
standing alongside him, allowing herself to completely fall under its spell.
I joined their circle and we stood silently before the revived component,
quietly absorbing its undulating sounds without visibly responding.
After allowing it several minutes to converge, it was clear that something
wasn't right. He knelt down a second time in front of the machine and began
twisting its dials and knobs, attempting to arrive at an acceptable tempo.
He worked steadfastly and quickly arriving at the right position by slowing
it's rhythm a tad. He replayed the song at it seemed to pick up a noteworthy
infusion of energy when it played at the right speed. He turned back to her
seeking her approval, but she remained unmoved despite his effort. The music
was too dour and overly elaborate; it definitely wasn't her style.
Disappointed by her conclusion, he stood up in front of the machine and
listened forlornly. She was right, and he reluctantly decided to turn it
off. He didn't give up, and waved at her with surprising defensiveness. She
didn't need to worry, he was testing the machine to check that it still
worked.
He returned to the pile of records and sorted through them looking for a
specific song. Flipping through the albums didn't take long, he quickly
settled on a record with colorful, convergent artwork on its over. I
couldn't see precisely what it attempted to convey from my distant,
odd-angle. it words seemed unintelligible. I recognized some of the symbols
on its cover but couldn't remember exactly what they signified. He carefully
took the album from its sleeve and looked it over. The record looked a bit
worn but seemed mostly intact. He slowly placed it on the record player
before somewhat cautiously placing the needle on its surface. At first, it
let out only garbled feedback.
There were several moments when it felt like it wouldn't recover, but it
appeared to skip over the early minor scratches without much effort. After
several moments, a strange song began to play. It sounded slurred, confused
and disorienting, like it was moving through muddy quicksand, slowly sinking
in place. It picked up the pace suddenly, giving way to a rapid pulsing
series of drum beats. Momentum trailed off just as quickly before it slowed
in place before pausing at awkward points. This by design; there were
structurally engineered deliberate pauses in the action that allowed the
listener room to contemplate.
He stood over the record silently, not moving. He began attempting to
reconcile his disappointment. He took a few steps back and began attempting
to swing at its direction but couldn't find a proper tempo to follow. He
appeared to have a difficult task despite his efforts; it looked like the
process would be in vain. He stopped trying to find its rhythms and moved
back to the machine. He leaned over it and began adjusting its unlabeled
dials slowly, making minor changes before taking few steps back to listen
carefully. It came closer to arriving at the proper speed but he couldn't
quite get the right speed after several tries. Finding the correct speed
proved elusive. His arms motioned to her for assistance but she didn't
appear exactly sure what more she could do, Shrugging her shoulders, she
stood back and waited patiently, unsure what a second set of hands would
add.
Turning his attention towards the machine, he made a series of small
adjustments to its momentum before standing back to listen. It took multiple
tries but he wasn't satisfied after repeated attempts. The sounds slowly
began to converge after awhile and he gradually appeared to achieve a
tentative balance. After making one last, seemingly insignificant change,
the machine finally arrived at the correct speed. The shrouded song revealed
itself to with a surprisingly upbeat opening.
I'd never heard that particular theme before that point but as I listened
carefully, it beckoned with an undeniable energy. Unfocused on any
particular sound, it alternated between surreal jazz, cool blasts of
temporal blues and indescribable bleeps that sounded like they'd jumped out
of a computer, This quickly descended into a strange waltzing march
unfolding like e paper, with multiple layers that built on each other, the
strange energy of its insistent horns and pipes reached a peak before
quickly changing direction. The waltz continued with each section turning
over itself, unfolding into countering yet strangely complimentary forms.
Its clashing emotions created a strangely appropriate accompaniment to our
disconcerting yet invigorating and engaging situation. Its competing notes
and contrasting moods marking a complete divergence from the dour song he'd
begun playing earlier. Visibly pleased that his persistent efforts had
worked eventually, he managed a quick smile before returning to double-check
his work. Standing over the machine triumphantly he followed the strange
music precisely.
The undulating sounds encountered no further disputations or delays, and
played without further breaks or gaps, despite the erratically-timed
throttles and instinctive approach that permeated its untraceable notes. He
watched carefully for any further breaks or scratches, but the remaining
surface was unobstructed, allowing the song to reach its conclusion
uninterrupted. Relieved that he'd found a successful rhythm and speed for
the machine to follow, he moved away from the cluttered, Claus trophic
machine's radius, encroached by a disheveled pile of records, further
hindered by rows of dials. He escaped the claustrophobic array that allowed
him little room quickly, moving with earned resolve into at the open area in
the boat's unobstructed middle section.
I watched him stand in place silently alone in the center of the vessel. He
endured a sudden burrs of doubt. Hesitating for a several moments, he
appeared to focus on the song intently, attempting to decipher its unwieldy
styles with little success. I wasn't sure what he was planning, but he
surprised me when he began to dance, following in tandem to its beat with
tentative gestures. Initially, he signed though the air wish his arms.
Extending his hands outward, he began shifting alongside the music,
reflexively marking the empty space around hissed. Attempting to further
maneuver, he shuffled his feet in the same deliberate manner.
Cooperating with the indescribable song's rhythms faithfully only resulted
in unbalanced stumbling. It defied initial efforts, concealing its
underpinnings as it unexpectedly shifted between divergent styles repeatedly
at odd intervals. He'd take time, gradually learning its quirks before it
unexpectedly veered in another direction. It played through several time on
the player, and each time presented another challenge that he hadn't
anticipated. He maintained his calm demeanor but I could tell after a few
minutes that his frustration was rapidly intensifying. I thought he might
need to change to a simpler track but he appeared determined to conquer the
challenging song. He persisted in the task with obvious determination but
there seemed to be something missing in his arsenal. It wasn't clear
initially what it might be, but the gaps in his movement seemed to grow more
pronounced as he father engaged his efforts. It quickly became obvious that
something was missing. He needed a partner.
He looked past me, directly in her direction. He waved his arms at her
stridently, but she didn't seem to notice or care about his invitation. Her
eyes didn't acknowledge his struggles with the complex music; instead
appearing to focus on the river currents flowing beyond him. His exhortation
unanswered at first, he waved his arms with greater intensity and began to
yell, hoping that he'd be able to dislodge her unwavering disinterest with
greater effort. Resolutely unmoved, she eventually nodded back negatively,
indicting that she wasn't interested. He appeared to grow insistent, and
began stomping his feet on the boards, infusing greater insistence with each
defiant stomp. This appeared to shake her stony edifice and she turned in
his direction and began following him more closely. He remained stuck in
certain points in the song, unable to come up with a satisfying rejoinder to
the music and these stifling breaks stopped him in his tracks repeatedly.
Appearing to become aggravated by his struggle, she made several steps
closer in his direction before she was standing just outside the perimeter
of the vessel's central boards. She was reluctantly observing, but remained
a noticeable distance apart, unwilling to join his futile task.
He managed to make seemingly inconsequential compromises with the impalpable
song's unyielding structure, but his desultory moved during its sporadic
lulls were only placeholders. He admonished her again after another repeat
to at least attempt to help him. She stood her ground, crossed her arms and
kept him at a remove; she reiterated that she was only watching him out of
curiosity. She pointed across the boat and back towards the seas, someone
needed to monitor the waves in case something happened. He remained adamant,
patiently returning to uncover the song's intricate layers regardless of her
divergent focus. Interrupting his efforts made it more difficult to resume.
After pausing briefly, he quickly regained balance and found himself
retracing his flawed motions again, detracting from his frustrated earlier
efforts. After watching him battle the unbalanced flow, she appeared to grow
sympathetic. Apparently deciding that working with him instead of ignoring
his efforts would make things go faster, she walked stridently towards his
position. He extended his arm in her direction and she somewhat reluctantly
grasped it. The remaining moments of the song played and faded beneath the
waves. Looking around, she took a few steps forward, awaiting its next
rotation. She paused for a moment, unsure if this was the right time, but
decided to somewhat reluctantly, concede to his determined effort before
taking a deep breath. Moving tentatively, her feet stretched over the
boards, with her arms anticipating a somewhat extended foray into what
appeared to be a needless distraction.
As the seemingly impervious, densely-layered song began another rotation on
the turnstile, I noticed his eyes visibly focus. He began to narrow and
squint; his primary focus determined to sway any of her lingering
recalcitrance with his undeniable energy. She moved swiftly towards his
direction, creating a complimentary path of her own. A counter-intuitive
force came to prominence quickly. Without further hesitation, she moved
inward assuming leadership of the dance. She exchanged the role intuitively,
allowing him to resume his pace without interfering.
Watching his movements closely, she never completely let her guard down. Her
reserve maintained a subtle but noticeable deference. Her eyes never
completely connected with the surroundings, but she did concede a few
tangible aspects to compliment his strenuous efforts. I had to look veer
carefully and observed her feet remained active, gently responsive while
remaining closely perched during the his active sections, but responded with
forceful motions during the fallow portions that he'd rest or sleep-walk
through. She determined intuitively to focus on the sections that troubled
him, allowing them to alternate their portions of the complex song without
prompting. Initially, he didn't seem to understand what she hoping to
accomplish. His confusion led to several awkward breaks during the song when
he stood still, unsure what to do. Watching carefully, he quickly figured
out what she was doing and took over the lead when she stopped, marking the
sections with his footsteps.
It took several attempts for him to figure her methods. This caused him to
stumble around initially but his steps eventually arrived at an
appropriately consistent flow. As he caught up with her methods, they began
switching lead position between themselves with intuitive smoothness and
greater dexterity. Their arms began to sway in parallel to their feet,
slowly building momentum, their elbows began jutting in direct response to
the song. They took surprisingly little time perfecting the basic structures
of each move, they became increasingly confident. After several turns over
the vessel's boards, they began switching leadership effortlessly. It
gradually became apparent that I'd been misinterpreting their actions. My
initial assumptions weren't accurate. They weren't learning new steps for an
unfamiliar song, instead remembering long-dormant responses to a
half-forgotten composition.
As the reconnected duo resumed their partnership, they became increasingly
comfortable with each another's nuanced moves. hey swirled around the boat's
surface easily with increasing ease and resplendence, effortlessly switching
leadership with increasing dexterity. They became more experimental and
intuitive, their movements intertwined as they synchronized their movements
with increasing skill and agility. As they danced together with invigorating
energy, a previously hidden yet undeniable connection between them became
obvious. They didn't talk to each other but it was perfectly clear what they
were saying as I watched. There was initial reluctance and hesitation, but
once the defenses fell, there was no mistaking an undeniable bond that
created an unbreakable bond.
Their intricate dance unfettered by unspoken limits, managing to fill-in the
song's breaks. She moved across the deck with increasing grace. Her formerly
deliberate steps that followed rigid lines, fragmented. The man in the crisp
suit relaxed while she allowed herself greater freedom to move outside the
fixed path. With each step forged together, their resulting combination
strengthened, their shared emotions quickly awakened from an extended
hibernation. The song repeated in a frenzied loop, increasing its hold with
each play. They became increasingly untethered from their closely-defined
roles. The pair effortlessly re-established a hidden, yet durable
partnership; jubilantly signifying an unarticulated yet loudly pronounced
reconciliation.
It was an unlikely combination, they appeared miss-matched in some aspects
but perfectly aligned in significant ways. Both shared a dissimilar, yet
complimentary style, exchanging forceful entreaties deriving from the
unpredictable music's overwhelming instruction. They moved graciously over
the smooth wooden boards with determination and inspiration. I noticed his
feet begin to swing and sway. His burst of resilient strength decisively
transcended the demonstrably stifling, heavy burdens of expectation and
self-awareness that truncated his earlier efforts to reach equilibrium with
the song. She watched his stiffing reserve crumble without pretext.
His reluctance quickly replaced by an ebullient energy that seemed to infuse
her movement. Their expressions warmed from a reluctant approach stymied by
reserve to warmly embrace each other and enjoy an unencumbered,
unapologetically resplendent moment. Watching the two of them, I was
surprised and relieved that she'd finally acquiesced, and reconstituted her
relationship with an appropriately adequate partner. Her natural grace was
unrivaled, her energy untethered from the immediate pressures of the tense
surroundings. It served as a welcome relief for her energy, she didn't have
to worry about navigating the unforgiving river currents. His
counter-intuitive approach appeared to work brilliantly, unraveling the
accumulated strain, allowing her to channel her energies across a different
field of invisible yet tangible space.
Clearly relieved, her feet danced across the boat's open berth with
increasingly apparent energy alongside refocused attention. Her intrinsic
style revealed itself, releasing an unexpected force held closely, hidden
beneath a guarded demeanor. She appeared reinvigorated by a newfound reserve
of inner energy that simultaneously released deferred passions. She
gradually diverged from her assumed reliance straight lines with a series of
increasingly unexpected, elaborate flourishes. She began turning in
unanticipated directions, switching her center in response to his advances,
deliberately crossing his path with unexpected abandon.
Her intuitively performed gestures and distinctive moves became increasingly
unpredictable, her movements playfully extended around the invisible
barriers surrounding the circumference, she purposely continued challenging
his expectations about which maneuver she'd perform next. Shaking off the
accumulated residue of time and malaise, he responded in kind, purposely
ducking out of her path, forging unexpected lines of his own, countering her
paths without premonition. I'd nearly forgotten some of our earliest
encounters but was reminded that she was a gracious dancer, generous at many
points but more than capable of throwing an unanticipated maneuver onto the
floor in countervailing fashion.
With multiple rounds spent working through the same song, she decided it was
time for a change. She walked towards the stack of records and changed
direction. Replacing the record, she looked in his direction and smiled
broadly. The following song came at them with another discordant beginning,
but it was slower and contemplative, almost romantic at certain points. Its
more emotional pace was decidedly easier to follow, allowing them to
resurrect their deeper connection. They swooned and rocked around each other
fearlessly, becoming increasingly bold.
I found myself unavoidably drawn ever further into their mysterious,
unspoken conversation. It was impossible to explain what they were saying to
each other, but I understood every word. My eyes were subsequently directed
towards the floor. I found myself mesmerized as their feet surreptitiously
lifted from the constrained gravities holding them to the boat. The
recalcitrant surface reluctantly released its firm grip on their feet until
they were freed. Without encountering further imposition, the entrancing
figures appeared to rise unimpeded, effortlessly gliding beneath alien
skies.
I knew better than to impose myself into their field. They were far above my
skill or talent, there would be little point in interfering. Watching them
move around one another, covering the vessel with residing energy, the pair
formed an inseparable partnership that would be foolish to interrupt.
Watching closely, I silently admired their unrelenting energy and elaborate
technique, their feet maintained consistency of purpose even as they
energized and challenged each other without holding fast to any specific
patterns. During this extended excursion, I didn't neglect my duties to
maintain a close watch. Quickly looking upward, I noticed the moons above
had slipped to a noticeable degree from their apex.
Their shadows cast slightly smaller and dimmer forms across the surface as
the night grew longer, but ample time and space remained. He walked back to
the record player and switched the song by flipping the record over. It
maintained a similar feel but with a calmer, smoother flow. It wasn't choppy
like the previous music and allowed them to relax a little. He quickly
walked back and she held out her fingers before quickly folding his arm into
hers. I watched as they embraced each other warmly, their glowing
silhouettes prominently standing against the nocturnal glow. They began
swaying in unspoken harmony; dancing flawlessly across the vessel's floor. I
sat impassively watching them, worried that I'd never match the skill and
talent their perfectly aligned figures conveyed.
The burgeoning song built velocity and momentum before reaching a frantic
yet measured apotheosis. When it converged at this relative peak, an
unlikely denouement occurred. I felt a unexpected surge of energy pierce and
remaining doubt hovering overhead. It wasn't completely clear what was
happening. It wasn't long before I arrived at an unmistakable realization. I
quickly concluded what the a sudden jolt of energy meant. Its surprising
force inspired a robust response on my part. I sprung up from my docile
position immediately. Spotting the forlorn canvas standing expectantly, yet
mostly unattended in the darkness, I felt a secondary force overflow my
position. I ran towards the half-forgotten canvas, quickly following an
unimpeded path across the boat. Determined to not allow the renewed
inspiration pass, I picked up the pen. Hastily placing a fresh page on the
easel's base, my hands commenced work without further hesitation.
My lingering trepidation evaporated instantaneously, I knew precisely what
to draw.
- Michael Palisano
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